May 19, 2010

Gut Check Time

194 lb, 28.8% body fat on the scale.  Again, that's some serious variability.  35" waist measurement, unchanged from previous, but that's to be expected as pretty much the last 4 days have been a nutritional disaster.  The worst part is that -- again -- I weighed 191 last Friday, and was doing quite well.

I went off plan.  Saturday my temporary crown was hurting, so I drank a lot of milk blended with peanut butter and blueberries rather than try to eat solid food.  This of course came after my once-per-week "treat meal" of biscuits and gravy that caused my tooth to hurt in the first place.  Sunday, my wife and I celebrated her promotion with friends, and there was plenty of junk food to which I didn't bother to say no.  Leftovers from that same party still linger in the house (mmm, brownies), so I've not been much better since then.

Part of the problem is surely psychological.  I made such significant progress early on that I've become somewhat careless.  I have a cheat meal once a week or so, I'm not as strict about getting enough sleep, I still don't watch my calories well, etc.  The end result of which is zero movement on the scale for three months, even with the body recomposition progressing somewhat, and pretty good strength gains.  This is now the end of month 7, and start of month 8, and while I'm pretty sure my original goals were much less reasonable than I'd thought at the time, I'm still no closer to my revised goals than I was in February.  The inevitable question I have to ask myself is whether or not I have the heart to really finish this, or if this is "good enough" and I can just languish here in perpetuity.  I'm not going to lose the "last 30 lb" in the next 30 days, I can't.  But I could lose 10, if I wanted it badly enough and I made a sincere effort.  If I can't make that sincere effort, clearly, I don't want it badly enough.

Enough writing.  Time to head to the gym.

Posted by: leoncaruthers at 10:03 AM | Comments (2) | Add Comment
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1 I have a cheat meal once a week or so

No big deal.  You can't get obsessive about this stuff.  Just keep plugging away.

Posted by: Michael at May 25, 2010 07:29 PM (JtKsy)

2 You can't get obsessive about this stuff.

Maybe you can't.  I obviously can.

Posted by: leoncaruthers at May 26, 2010 06:20 AM (JSO4h)

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